The Attention Whore

It’s been a while, I know.  A LONG while, actually.  It’s the usual excuse.  Busy.  With work.  With friends.  With life.  No time for blogging.  Same lame stuff.

I actually miss blogging.  I miss even more being able to read my friends’ blogs and update myself on the latest happenings in my social circle of friends.  I need to get my life back.

Actually, I still do have my life.  It’s just that lately it centres more on my life at work and my friends at work rather than my life outside of work and my family and friends outside of work.

Work is not bad.  Lots of new friends.  Lots of new things to do and learn.  Lots of travelling around the country.  That’s great.  That’s the best part, actually.  Though it can get a bit tiring at times especially if you travel alone.  But when you have friends with you, that’s the best!

Raya was okay.  My maternal grandmother passed away a week before Raya, God rest her soul in peace.  I guess it dampened our Raya celebrations, but it made us closer as a family.  Not just my immediate family, but all my uncles, aunts, cousins and what not else that constitutes as family.  But overall it was okay.  Except that the whole family got sick.  My mom had the fever and everything at first : cough, cold, etc.  Right after my grandma passed away.  I think it was because we got caught in the rain at her funeral, plus the weather lately has not been helping much.

I got sick next.  And the rest just followed.  It was quite bad.  Demam sampai tak boleh bangun.  Running nose and very, very bad cough.  Just got better recently.  But still ada slight cough.  Running nose on and off.  That must be a sight seeing my nose running on and off.  Agak-agak boleh menang 100m tak?

But other than that, our Raya celebrations this year actually felt more "family" than last year.  I guess the death of a loved one can make us even closer than we were before.

Before I forget,  Selamat Hari Raya Eidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin to all my Muslim friends out there.  Hope your Raya celebrations this year was a good one.  So, who lost 5kg during the fasting month and gained 10kg a week into Raya?  Jangan makan lemang, ketupat, rendang banyak sangat.  If you have, then back to the gym you go!

Also, wishing Farah Honey and Fariq congratulations on the birth of their baby girl.  She’s so small and cute!  Just like a doll!!!  All the best in facing parenthood!  Good luck!

Have loads to write about, but don’t know where to start.  My thoughts are all messed up with all that I want to write here.

I miss Juwita.  She’s so busy with her babies and marriage life, I barely see or even hear from here any more.  I guess I play a part in that also since I’m also so busy that I don’t even have the time to catch up with her.

I’ve been away from the gym for quite a while, especially during the fasting month.  Not because I didn’t want to do classes because I was fasting but because I was always out of town for work.  Lots of travelling the last two months, and even more to come.

Surprisingly, I don’t miss not being able to go the gym.  Before, I would feel suffocated if I couldn’t be at the gym every day of the week.  I would resent anything that took me away from my gym life.  But now…

But I miss my friends and my babes.  Sorely.  I miss their company, the companionship, their contagious laughter, the lewd jokes, the gossipping, the drama, the hanging out at mamak till 5.00am in the morning, talking while sharing our food, and most of all, the friendship.  I’m scared one day I’ll wake up and everyone has moved on and find that I’ve been left behind.  God forbid.  Just hope that they know I’m always thinking of them, even though I don’t see them half as much as I used to.  Miss you guys.  Hope you know that.

I don’t know…  I guess maybe I’ve just reached a point where I need to take a break from the gym.  My passion for jamming is dormant at the moment.  Oh yes, I would still love to jam when given the opportunity.  But now, it’s not something I would sorely miss if it was taken away from me.

I’ve dropped many of my classes.  From seven, I now only have five and very soon, it’s just going to be three.  Main reason : work.  Too much travelling.  Second reason : no more passion.

I guess I’m just really focused with my work now.  I love my job.  Every second, despite facing some unhappy obstacles along the way.  I love my friends at work.  They bring  light to my life.  I love the challenge of the new job.  I never feel like I’m an idiot when I’m at work.  Some people may try to make you feel like an idiot, but at the end of the day, who’s the real idiot?  I’m always learning something new.  Meeting new people.  Enjoying every second.  I hope this good feeling lasts.  Insyaallah.

I’ll try to blog more, but no promises, okay.  And yes, Hafiz,  I was still stuck in the elevator all this time.  Hence, no blogging till now.

Cheers, peeps!  Will talk to you later.  If not soon.