The Attention Whore

I did my usual 45-minute class in Subang today.  The number was not bad considering the past few weeks it has fluctuated quite a bit.  Didn’t do any single tracks but did the Euro House and Tribal block, followed by the usual routines of recovery and second cardio block before ending it with a short cool down.

Considering that I have dropped quite a lot of cardio classes lately, I was glad that my endurance has not dropped so badly till the point that I’m practically panting for breath.  Bolehlah lagi.  But if I don’t keep things up, it will be quite a torture to maintain my form while teaching.

The main reason I’ve dropped many of my cardio classes is because of my job.  Once I start travelling for my work, I can barely make it for my classes.  Then I’ll start feeling guilty for making the GXCs work overtime to find covers for me and also for making the members unhappy with my non-attendance.

Secondly, it’s because of my knee.  I do more yoga now.  It’s another alternative workout.  Because high-impact classes put a lot of pressure on my knees.  And I’m getting older.  And I still love and need my knees.  (Just in case for those who do not know, I fractured my left femur around the kneecap area in February 2004.)  But too much jumping and twisting around with my knees will give me osteoathritis before I reach 35.  Dahlah tak cukup calcium.  I don’t want them to be permanently damaged as I still need them very much for a long time, God’s willing.

But the problem now is that, with lesser cardio workout, I’m starting to build more fat because I’m not burning the fat and calories I used to burn when I used to do more classes.  How now?  Lesser cardio classes is for the good of my knees.  But lesser cardio classes also means increase in my fat ass.  Oops, sorry.  What I meant was fat mass.

I’ve been noticing that the lower bulge in my tummy is becoming bigger and more rounded.  And I’m not married.  And no, no kids also.  So, no past or present pregnancies.  Yes, I do eat a lot nowadays, and yes, I do lesser cardio workout.  Hence, the increasing circumference.

But lately, the lower bulge in my tummy is becoming more and more prominent.  A friend of mine pointed out, maybe it’s not because I’m doing lesser cardio workout (but the eating, yes), but it’s because I’m doing more abs workout now.  More abs workout means more muscles in the abs.  But because there’s less cardio workout, the fat is still there.  So, the muscles underneath all that layer of skin is pushing below the fat on my tummy causing the fat to protrude on the outside.  Boleh ye macam tu?  Does that mean I need to do more cardio to burn those top layers of fat on my tummy before I can get to show the six-packs below?  And that if there are actually six-packs below all that fat tissue.  Aiyoh…  How now brown cow?  Is this myth true or not?  The one about the abs muscles below pushing on the fat on top and causing your tummy to protrude.  If so, how do I get a win-win situation?

I’m obsessed with obtaining sculpted abs, but the most I have done before this is just dream about it.  Now that I’m actually doing something about it, the fat layers are too thick for the muscles to come out and show themselves off.  I just hope it won’t become a lost cause.  Huhuhuhu…  Maybe I need to get some professional advice on this.

I’m also obsessed with my body’s flexibility.  Nak join Juwita’s yoga and pilates in-the-craze-now club and aim for all those goals she’s aiming for, if not more. 

On top of that, I also want shoulders and arms like Nicole Kidman.  Boleh?  Not too bulky, but very lean and sculpted.  Aiyoh…  Such high aspirations…  Let’s just hope that I’ll only end up dreaming about it instead of actually doing something about it.  Oopsss…  I think that came out the wrong way.  Let’s try it again…  Let’s just hope that I’ll end up actually doing something about it instead of just dreaming about it.  Hmmm…  Now that sounds right, I think.

Ah well,  I guess I should be thankful that I’m quite healthy, still able to do what I want to do, go where and when I want to go, and eat what I want to eat.  I’m thankful that I’ve not yet ballooned up and can still maintain a size that I’m quite happy with.  Alhamdullillah.

But it’s the tummy, tummy, tummy I really can’t help but grovel about.  Lepas nie nak puasa regularlylah.  Let’s see if that helps.  As if I can fast regulary during non-fasting seasonlah.  Sometimes I love food too much.  Hence, the beautiful buncit tummy, tummy, tummy and spare tyre around the mid-section.  Can one…  Where there’s a will, there’s a way.  (Fingers crossed XX)

Help…

If I actually get this blog posted, it’s going to be an accomplishment.  Because it will mean that I have been able to post up a blog TWO DAYS in a row (even though the blogs’ contents aren’t that much lar…)!!!

I’ve been sitting through the whole lunch hour reading my friends’ and other people’s blogs and updating myself on news on them and I started thinking why it’s so difficult for me to blog nowadays.  And the answer is pretty simple…

I have nothing to blog about.  Or rather, I have nothing that I feel I would like to blog about.

There are a few things that have been happening and are happening in my life right now, but I don’t really feel they are worth blogging about.  It’s pretty much the same mundane stuff.  Hence, no blogging.

Relationship with family.  Great.  With friends.  Great also.  I think.  I hope.

Prince Charming?  None yet who has swept me off my feet.  (Believe me, the happily ever after in all those Walt Disney cartoons : They don’t happen.  At least not to me.)  They are practically non-existent.  And if there were any, they are obviously already married, taken or sexually-favour the same sex.

I have not come across any pots of gold at the end of the rainbow.  I think the leprechauns have hidden all of them because they have just realised by leaving their gold hidden at the end of the rainbow will deplete their wealth considerably.

There has been no promotions or raises at work.  For me.  In the near future.  (That is what happens when you work in the public sector.  You only get your promotion a week before you retire.)  But luckily, work has been good for me so far.  Nothing exciting happening but I can still get up in the mornings to go to work.

My life is quite a fixed routine lately.  (Wah!!!  Damn boring!!!)  The only difference is that at the gym, I’m TEACHING lesser classes but DOING more classes now.  (Meaning that I go to the gym more as a member now and attend other people’s classes or do workouts other than Body Jam.)

I need to lessen my cardio workout, because my left knee has been acting up on me lately.  I’ve started doing yoga.  It helps a lot with strength and especially flexibility, which I would like very much to improve.  My flexibility has never been that good.

And yesterday I went for my first pilates class after two years of not attending any.  Sakit badan, jiwa dan raga.  It was pure torture, but it was a nice kind of torture.  (If you can believe that!)  Hopefully I will accomplish getting  the tight buns and sculpted abs I’ve always wished for but only been dreaming of.

That’s it, guys.  Nothing much.

Maybe you guys can give me topics to write about to get me started on blogging again.  Because there’s really not much I can blog about my life.  But on other stuffs, maybe.  Especially it if involves some considerable amount of bitching.  Hehehe…

Peace be with all of you.  Adios!

Oh my God!!!  It’s already nearing the end of the month of January and I have yet to post a "proper" blog for the year 2007!!!  Actually, I have yet to post one since November 2006!!!  That’s TWO WHOLE months of not blogging!  HELP!!!

I really need to go for a time management course…

Anyway, am only able to upload this picture of the Xmas-NY party we had at Andrew-Kenny’s place during the hols.  Here’s a salute to great friendships!!!